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[19 Jun 2003|02:53pm] withdrawl withdrawl withdrawl im growing again. someone might get left behind... post comment

dogs and leeches [19 Jun 2003|02:51pm] I just now decided I'm going to use somebody. just for the thrill of something wrong. 2 comments|post comment

cantafuckportagemothersize [23 Apr 2003|12:47am] PS! motherfuckers who give ANGER MANAGMENT a high rating should NEVER FUCKING TOUCH THE GRACE OF "GUMMO" MOTHERFUCKER! post comment

moviesmobilefuck [23 Apr 2003|12:46am] Holy motherfucker. my favorite director is now Harmony Korine. I will make a film, and you will fucking shut up. I even heard someone say "NOT a mainstream film, but Very interesting." Not mainstream? therefor bad? FUCK! post comment

MINIMALISTIC SUPERIOR MALE [01 Apr 2003|12:53am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Radiohead - Paranoid Android ] I AM TYPICAL TEENAGE MALE! FOOTBALL FOOTBALL RAH RAH RAH! WHEN CAN I GET LAID, WHERES THE BEER?! HOW BOUT I BE A BADASS AND RUN OVER THOSE DEER!! SOMEWHERE OUT THERE IS A HUGE PLAYGROUND, SO LARGE THAT I WILL NEVER MAKE IT OUT, I NEVER PACKED FOR THE TOUR, THEY CHANGED MY NAME TO TROUT1, TROUT1 HOW ARE YOU DOING? FUCK YOU HOW ABOUT THAT? HUGE FUCKING PLAYGROUND!! H U G E !! PARENTAL | LATNERAP so you want to be a rocksuperstar? 1 comment|post comment

WEEKENDS FORNEVER! [23 Mar 2003|09:55pm] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Venetian Snares - Eleven Million Panda ] while walking out of comp usa, a small child and his mother approached my friend and I... Child: hello, were supporting missionary work in iraq, please take this pamphlet. Pat: ... Nick: ... Child: Would you like to make a donation? Pat: ... Nick: We just spent all of our money in the store Child: The donations go straight to missionary workers in iraq. Pat: ... Nick: ... Child: Just a dollar or 2 is very helpful. Pat: ... Nick: Do you really think it's smart to hang out in a parkinglot infront of stores that sell expensive electronics and ask people for money? The mother takes our pamphlets and hands us small pieces of paper with a crying child on the front. Mother: Do you have jesus in your hearts? Pat: ... Nick: No. Mother: Would you like to? Pat: Nah, were good. I support the war in iraq as much as I support jesus. What a contradictive situation. 1 comment|post comment

bandersnatch. [18 Mar 2003|10:39pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | Aphex Twin - Curtains ] I noticed something, something about spiders... \\ spiders // \\spiders, I fucking hate you. \\ \\ Gwenith Paltrow. I hope you are happy. You beautiful piece of shit. post comment

Update [18 Mar 2003|07:51am] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | Squarepusher - Goodnight Jade ] Heres another update... [MOLDHAMMER] -(wcbn show)- Theres a radio show coming up this april 11th, for anyone with the access to highspeed internet, you can stream it live from www.wcbn.com. If you live in the Ann Arbor area, tune into 88.3 fm. The show will start at 12am and run to 3am. A recorded version will be avaliable for download shortly after the show. A mix of many artists will be creating the music that morning, artax, ratl3, moldhammer, and more. -(ATL3 records)- I am working on a new album, composed of crunchy beats, distorted vocals and scary textures. Inspired by an odd occurance in a bath tub, this album will surely be disturbing, unwanted and quite nasty. :) Due late summer, early fall... -(Kikapu)- On the lighter side of things, I am also working on a very laid back, ambient, album for Kikapu records. Due this june... [AUTOMATICPIE] A lack of funds caused the pause in this project. I am broke, although I have found a source of editing, anything else costs alot of money that I am too lazy to make. Want to see this movie? send me money! [DEIHY] Almost got something done, don't worry, when this lifts off the ground, it will be entirely badass! [COLLAB. with DISASTRATO] Still in the planning phase... [COLLAB. with Noise Reductions] Technical difficulties, were working it out... post comment

TEst [18 Mar 2003|07:16am] [ music | Squarepusher - Thin Life ] TEST! post comment

PLUR!!! [21 Dec 2002|05:34pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | nullsleep - i love u (... both of u) ] I am preparing for my departure. Destination California. Music? Yes. Oxy 8? Yes. Star wars? ...No. post comment

HURT [14 Dec 2002|09:09pm] I think I have feelings for jamie winchester. YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL MY EMPIRE OF DIRT I WILL LET YOU DOWN I WILL LET MAKE YOU HURT... post comment

ROCKCLIMBING [13 Dec 2002|07:37am] I had just gotten back from light space travel to find my once active house, completely empty. I had a bunch of space travel friends that I didn't know. We went up to my room to find it empty, except 2 things in the far corner. It was a dead rockclimber and his backpack. The room felt wierd, like bad spirits or something and we all had to leave. All of the sudden I was climbing rocks, with dead rock climbers all over the place. All I can remember from that point was having to climb over the icey bodies of all the dead climbers. odd.r post comment

THE HOMELAND MACHINE BOYS [11 Dec 2002|12:12am] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | Aphex Twin - White Blur 2 - Selected Ambient Works - Vol. 2 (Disc 2) ] Is anything really ever special? No, not ever. I read a qoute on the board of my math rooms "qoute of the day" section, it read "Intelligence is like a river, the deeper it is, the less noise it makes." Right then a popular cheerleader starts cackling and spitting up words in a very loud manor, and I think to myself "How can the machine be right?" The one system that I have ever hated completely was right, it was utterly correct. I didn't know this was possible, if the machine creates the kids, why does it abuse them? Is it just like an angry poverty ridden household with abusive parents? Machine? Abusive? I also remembered this dialogue with a bum in washington DC last year, someday it will reveal it's true meaning... Bum: Are you down here for drugs? Pat: No, I'm good. Bum: Go back now. Bum: Why are you out here? Pat: I have to get to the holocaust museum. Bum: Are you out here for drugs? Pat:... Bum: (Begging to yell) YOUR LIFE ENDS HERE!!! Pat:... (Getting scared) Bum: Don't use any drugs. Pat: Okay. walk sign flashes and I walk away to continue my journey to the holocaust museum. I told my fellow classmates, who thought it was hilarious. One of them decided it would be a good idea to cross the street and go talk to the bum. I suggested they didn't, but they didn't listen. I never stayed around long enough to see what happened. Oh well... post comment

Sleeping in a void. [05 Dec 2002|11:12pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Squarepusher - Plaistow Flex Out ] Oh man I feel serene right now. I talked to this attractive girl on the internet today. All up until about 10 minutes ago I was feeling kind of worn out from school. Some joke plows right into me on pourpose, I was like "Hey buddy, what the fuck?!" and he laughed at me. Psh, people wonder why I feel as if everyone is laughing at me. I also heard some good reviews of a movie filmed in my part of the woods, michigan, called "Bowling for columbine". If you ask me, thats the best title for a movie I have heard so far. This will further inspire my filming of "Automatic Pie". I haven't really been working on it, I guess it will require more research, considering I am so totally lost on where to even start. PROJECT UPDATE!! [Automatic Pie]----- I am anticipating Automatic Pie to take forever. For this will be a more than one person job. I am not used to that, I pretty much always work alone. Why do I work alone? Because no one else who lives here has enough interest in anything. Someone would help me for like 2 days and that would be it for like 3 weeks. I'm thinking of making some more friends downtown. College folks seem to know what everything is, or know someone who knows the answer. [Moldhammer]----- I am really looking forward to christmas. I will be getting 1 present, and that is all I need. The Oxygen 8. A midi controller with the option of running completely off USB. Thats right! 1 USB cable and thats all, no power, no nothing. I also started a new song, as of now, inspired by my cat ramming around my room. He is large and black, thus making this perticular song, very, very completely sweet. [Ciprokitties]----- There may be a complete reconstruction of this site. I haven't the ability to make cool flash, trendy backgrounds or high tech animations, so I will be doing what I can. I recently learned that this site renewed itself for another year. Not my credit card, I could give a shit less. HA! [D.E.I.H.Y]----- Well, this one time jay said something around the lines of "Alot of projects and things I start kind of lay around until I do something with them, sometimes it takes a really long time" So I am not worried about it. I am also fairly busy with Moldhammer at the moment. He is coming out with some LP's and stuff, so am I, I guess this is just too busy right now. No hard feelings. 2 comments|post comment

Sleeping in a void. [05 Dec 2002|11:10pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Squarepusher - Plaistow Flex Out ] Oh man I feel serene right now. I talked to this attractive girl on the internet today. All up until about 10 minutes ago I was feeling kind of worn out from school. Some joke plows right into me on pourpose, I was like "Hey buddy, what the fuck?!" and he laughed at me. Psh, people wonder why I feel as if everyone is laughing at me. I also heard some good reviews of a movie filmed in my part of the woods, michigan, called "Bowling for columbine". If you ask me, thats the best title for a movie I have heard so far. This will further inspire my filming of "Automatic Pie". I haven't really been working on it, I guess it will require more research, considering I am so totally lost on where to even start. PROJECT UPDATE!! [Automatic Pie]----- I am anticipating Automatic Pie to take forever. For this will be a more than one person job. I am not used to that, I pretty much always work alone. Why do I work alone? Because no one else who lives here has enough interest in anything. Someone would help me for like 2 days and that would be it for like 3 weeks. I'm thinking of making some more friends downtown. College folks seem to know what everything is, or know someone who knows the answer. [Moldhammer]----- I am really looking forward to christmas. I will be getting 1 present, and that is all I need. The Oxygen 8. A midi controller with the option of running completely off USB. Thats right! 1 USB cable and thats all, no power, no nothing. I also started a new song, as of now, inspired by my cat ramming around my room. He is large and black, thus making this perticular song, very, very completely sweet. [Ciprokitties]----- There may be a complete reconstruction of this site. I haven't the ability to make cool flash, trendy backgrounds or high tech animations, so I will be doing what I can. I recently learned that this site renewed itself for another year. Not my credit card, I could give a shit less. HA! [D.E.I.H.Y]----- Well, this one time jay said something around the lines of "Alot of projects and things I start kind of lay around until I do something with them, sometimes it takes a really long time" So I am not worried about it. I am also fairly busy with Moldhammer at the moment. He is coming out with some LP's and stuff, so am I, I guess this is just too busy right now. No hard feelings. post comment

Sleeping in a void. [05 Dec 2002|11:08pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Squarepusher - Plaistow Flex Out ] Oh man I feel serene right now. I talked to this attractive girl on the internet today. All up until about 10 minutes ago I was feeling kind of worn out from school. Some joke plows right into me on pourpose, I was like "Hey buddy, what the fuck?!" and he laughed at me. Psh, people wonder why I feel as if everyone is laughing at me. I also heard some good reviews of a movie filmed in my part of the woods, michigan, called "Bowling for columbine". If you ask me, thats the best title for a movie I have heard so far. This will further inspire my filming of "Automatic Pie". I haven't really been working on it, I guess it will require more research, considering I am so totally lost on where to even start. PROJECT UPDATE!! [Automatic Pie]----- I am anticipating Automatic Pie to take forever. For this will be a more than one person job. I am not used to that, I pretty much always work alone. Why do I work alone? Because no one else who lives here has enough interest in anything. Someone would help me for like 2 days and that would be it for like 3 weeks. I'm thinking of making some more friends downtown. College folks seem to know what everything is, or know someone who knows the answer. [Moldhammer]----- I am really looking forward to christmas. I will be getting 1 present, and that is all I need. The Oxygen 8. A midi controller with the option of running completely off USB. Thats right! 1 USB cable and thats all, no power, no nothing. I also started a new song, as of now, inspired by my cat ramming around my room. He is large and black, thus making this perticular song, very, very completely sweet. [Ciprokitties]----- There may be a complete reconstruction of this site. I haven't the ability to make cool flash, trendy backgrounds or high tech animations, so I will be doing what I can. I recently learned that this site renewed itself for another year. Not my credit card, I could give a shit less. HA! [D.E.I.H.Y]----- Well, this one time jay said something around the lines of "Alot of projects and things I start kind of lay around until I do something with them, sometimes it takes a really long time" So I am not worried about it. I am also fairly busy with Moldhammer at the moment. He is coming out with some LP's and stuff, so am I, I guess this is just too busy right now. No hard feelings. post comment

state of minD [03 Dec 2002|12:55am] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | Aphex Twin - Grey Stripe - Selected Ambient Works - Vol. 2 (Disc 2).mp3 ] "nothing much happens, plotwise, in "My New Fighting Technique is Unstoppable." Karate fighters argue about who has the most dangerous technique. They fear Karate Snoopy, who is unbeatable. One of the fighters, initially the figment of another's imagination, turns into a circulatory system. Ambulances take many fighters to the hospital. Two fingerprints on a fighter's hand try to fight each other. Another fighter stands around with his foot in the air, waiting for opponents to walk into it. The whole book is built around a limited set of clip art images, many of which serve as multiple characters -- sometimes the angry-looking guy in profile is a main protagonist, hell-bent on battling the Circulatory System; other times he's just a member of a sort of foul-mouthed Greek chorus. It's hard to keep track of who's who. I like this ambiguity. The fondness I feel for the characters is more a fondness for their collective anxiety and aggression than for any particular individual. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Some characters are represented exclusively by unique clip art images. Karate Snoopy, the Circulatory System, and the ambulance drivers are based around visually distinctive clip art I came across during my temp job working at a university community health department. I downloaded the circulatory system and ambulance images while putting together a public health-related brochure. I found them very appealing, so I used them in the comic. The idea of a karate temple being a site of such violence that ambulances are constantly carting away fighters is very funny, yet the idea only came to me after I downloaded the ambulance clip art. The ambiguity of character extends to the overarching "story." Many of the strips are visually identical with only the dialogue changed. Some of the strips deal with the same situation in different ways. There aren't any page numbers. This book is ideally read in bursts, not start to finish. At some point the reader should have read enough of the book to recognize certain pages, but be unsure whether they are pages he or she has read before. The reader enters a mood of happy confusion and stasis, which is kind of like my professional life. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why doesn't the book have a clear story? I am not very good at writing stories with plots. I think it's because I don't find stories as interesting as characters. My childhood friends and I never got around to playing out narratives with our Star Wars figures. We spent long afternoons in the preliminary activity of "picking" -- choosing which figures we wanted on our side, in anticipation of a narrative or battle. We would dump our figures on the floor and rotate, picking out our characters, giving them names and attributes. We usually lost interest in the game once it was time to start playing out a story, so we'd just dump the figures back in a pile and start picking again. The point at which a character has his or her attributes worked out is very exciting. The possibilities are endless, so long as nothing actually happens to him or her. Again, this is kind of like my life. I hate committing to anything because it cuts off other options. That's why I am 29 and I don't have a career. I need to change this aspect of my life! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Temp jobs are the ideal creative environment for me: I usually have few serious responsibilities, but enough busy work so that any time spent making comics on the sly feels like a great feat of creative rebellion. All the means of artistic production -- computer, internet clip art, laser printer, photocopier -- are within reach. I have to work quickly, printing comics as soon as I make them, in case someone else has to use the laser printer. The more limited the tools and resources, the more I have to strain my imagination to create amusing situations, and usually, the funnier the final product is. At the temp job where I made "My New Fighting Technique is Unstoppable," I spent a lot of time perusing rap music websites. The limitless amount of new singles by new rappers is exhilarating. One of my favorite things about rap music is that many performers take on new identities while they're on the mic. Rappers rarely perform under their given name. Seeing a long list of new songs by new rappers is like seeing a long cast of characters for an exciting new play, without actually having to sit through the play. I spent more time reading rap reviews than listening to the songs. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Kool Keith is a great rapper. He has released albums under many different personalities. In cataloging esoterica about his multiple personalities, Kool Keith reminds me of the days in elementary school when my friend and I would fill sheets of paper with data about scores of imaginary characters: names, pictures of their faces, and major characteristics. We never went beyond these massive lists of characters. We never made up stories about them. This is the data for one of Kool Keith's personalities: "Mr. Gerbick; Age: 208; Birthplace: Jupiter; Likes: fishing, swimming; Dislikes: wolfmen, flossing; Quote: 'Skin like an alligator, carrying a dead walrus.'" -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Another element of rap music that comes across in my book is the obsession with fighting, and the importance of technique. Most freestyle battle rhymes are explicitly about language. Growing up I loved hearing so many people rapping about rapping -- making songs about, while exhibiting, cleverness with language. Why is this genre so fascinating to me? It's almost like I don't want language to get beyond itself and actually talk about anything in the world -- I like keeping it wrapped up in itself. I think this is why I studied philosophy in college and got really into Ludwig Wittgenstein. Staten Island's Wu-Tang Clan is a musical collective that appropriates the language and sound effects of martial arts movies into their lyrics and their beats. They exploit the analogy between fighting technique and lyrical technique very effectively. Some astute readers have picked up the Wu-Tang's influence on my book. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The greatest single influence on "My New Fighting Technique is Unstoppable," however, is Davey D's 1998 "KRS-One Will End Your Career", an analysis of then up-and-coming rapper Canibus's chances against the fabled Chris Parker, aka KRS-One. Canibus had made a name for himself as an excellent battle rhymer, one who took on popular favorite LL Cool J in one of the truly high-profile MC feuds to play big on commercial radio. Davey D's essay is filled with words of caution for the upstart Canibus, and confirms KRS-One's reputation as one of the greatest battle rhymers of all time: "(KRS-One) pointed out that he was like a martial arts master and that he is always prepared. He noted that when he released "The Return of the Boom Bap' album in '94 that he put all rappers on notice. He said that anyone who came out after '94 were subject to having their careers end at any given moment. KRS claimed that when he hears a new artist come on the scene that he immediately writes a rhyme that will totally dismantle him and his career. He keeps those rhymes in the back of his head just in case he has to take some kid out..." I think the character of Karate Snoopy in "My New Fighting Technique is Unstoppable" is based in part on KRS-One. Karate Snoopy seems capable of ending careers of other fighters "at any given moment." He seems very sure of himself, as do most good rappers. " Reading this has changed my life... 2 comments|post comment

SWEET! [02 Dec 2002|11:48pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Sparta - Hulahoop Wounds ] I just found this thing, I am totally going there. Maybe just the locals I have been looking for! HOLY SHIT! YEAH! post comment

FUCK. [02 Dec 2002|08:31pm] [ mood | embarrassed ] [ music | Aphex Twin - my teapot ] I accidentally posted someones name and password to an FTP. I feel real shitty about, I could have sworn I just linked it straight to the site, not the FTP. Oh well, I hope the webmaster gets my emails and removes it. fuck. post comment

Job? Nah. [30 Nov 2002|09:19pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | none ] Today I quit my job. It was a peaceful departure, because I lied. I told them that I was being forced to quit by my dad. I really quit because, dishwasher at a truckstop resteraunt called "Country Pride". It's as gross as it sounds. 2 comments|post comment

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